Day 84: Stopping the abuse of life–who do I trust?

Towards the end of last year I became more and more aware of the fact that I was looking for truth and wisdom mostly, if not exclusively, outside of myself and that I actually had no inner knowledge whatsoever of myself and by myself, or very little at least. All I knew seemed to have its origins elsewhere. For example in the books and blogs I read (which was a lot), in the opinions of others, in my cultural conditioning and what I thus had accepted about the truth of…

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Day 83: The pursuit of Perfection–a humbling experience

When I look at some of the other Journey-to-life blogs and the Desteni material collection in general I wonder who it was that has made this enormous effort to put it all out there for us. I find it well explained and well presented too. And its a huge collection. I see the same good and serious work on many other sites on the web as well, whereas my writing is generally still very scattered, unorganized, and often times sloppy. I attribute this to the fact that I feel very…

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Day 82: Mission Statement and Plan of Action

My Mission

After having had this deep revelation about my self-deception yesterday, I found that the commitments I had made on Day 81 are not specific enough for me to guide me through the day. This is particularly a problem in a situation in which I live alone with no people to connect with, as in my current situation. So what I need is a plan for the day that is in line with the commitments I have made and also in line with what is best for all. So this daily…

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Day 81: Backed up against the wall of my own illusions

Two days ago, on Jan 1, 2021, I embarked on a 78-Day Tarot-Challenge in order to get in touch with my inner process. I wanted to use the Tarot particularly to find out more about the driving forces that I had allowed to direct my life and hoped that through studying the Tarot I would become better able to use my intuition more clearly as I was sensing that I could not trust my mind any longer. Actually, whenever I thought I had understood something through my mind about me…

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Day 32: Is my mind really my own? A question of life and death

After a few days of writing my journey-to-life blog I feel great confusion in my mind. It becomes apparent to me that I carry a lot of ideas in my mind, sometimes very conflicting ideas, and that the mind does not even stop collecting more ideas. It is like a sponge, that sucks up all ideas it can find. And then it gets very confused about those ideas, what to do with them, how to react to them, how to apply them, which ones to select to focus on, which…

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Day 27: My Relationship with Money – Nothing has changed in a year

It has been a year since I last wrote here. And that year was wasted with concerns about money. Essentially I was worried about keeping my assets, which for me meant keeping my boat afloat through upgrades and investments. These have consumed large amounts of money and I spent that money only to not lose my boat and also installing major upgrades to make it safer, easier to sail, and more appealing to guests through which I hope to generate enough income to survive for me an my girlfriend. The…

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Day 26: My relationship with money – and this world

During the past days I have not had company and thus I took my freedom to stop working on the boat and rather reflect a bit on my life and where I want to go with it. I could have easily written daily Journey-to-Life blogs or continue with my DIP-Process, but both did not appeal to me. There was something inside that blocked me from doing it. I just could not find an issues to write a blog about or find a negative/emotional attachment to write about. I banged my…

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Day 25: My Relation with Money

On day 24 I wrote about the question how I see and define myself in this world. When I review my self-committment statements they sound pretty vague and unspecific. This does not seem to be very helpful, even to me, as even after two days I cannot always remember what I meant by them. Therefore, I want to pick up those statements, one each day, and make them more specific. “I commit myself to stop accepting other peoples ideas as my own simply because they sound true and advanced, or…

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Day 24: Who am I in this world?

Many people claim to know why we, as the individual human we see ourselves as, came here to earth and into this life. Some of them say earth is a school for learning karmic lessons. Others think we came here to help humanity evolve to the next conscious level. Then there are those who believe it was just an accident, life is short, we should get as much out of it as we possibly could. And there are those who see human life as a punishment from god for our…

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Day 23: Facing Internal Resistance

As I re-engage writing my Journey-To-Life blog I realize that after only three days of continued writing I am struggling to find issues that I deem worthy of writing about. This may only be some trick of the mind to steer me away from my writing as it begins to really challenge my mind. Ideas come and go. What seemed important yesterday seems irrelevant today. As before when I was engaged in writing the question comes up “Is this process really worth engaging in? What for anyway”. I see that…

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